I'm fat and pregnant... So what?

Firstly we all know the inevitable is coming... we are going to get fat!! it took me up until about 12 weeks until I started noticing the weight gain. They say during pregnancy you should gain about 2 stone in weight putting on roughly 1.5lbs a week. Now I'm not going to sugar coat the fact that I was a biggish size before I got pregnant I was a size 14/16 (14 on a good day) having said that I was a very fit size 16 running on average 10 miles a week and having recently completed a half marathon.

6 months before getting pregnant I actually managed to lose just over a stone with diet and regular exercise.  hurrah!! I finally started to like the way I looked and felt. 5 and a half months down the line is a different story, so far I've gained 1.5 stones and an unwanted double chin has started to appear!

Because my BMI was so high at the time of getting pregnant I was referred to a "healthy lifestyle clinic" at the hospital. Basically I sit in a room with a dietitian and get lectured about my weight and how its going to affect my pregnancy and labour. To be honest they are so patronising and full of shit I come away feeling so bad about myself I go straight across the road to drown my sorrows in a hot chocolate with extra cream from costa.

This weeks appointment included a glucose intolerance test or diabetes test for any non pregnant readers. luckily I came away unscathed and avoided the dreaded diagnosis of diabetes. In between blood tests I had to chat to the dietitian again (bangs head on wall)

this woman is so rude and has total lack of skills in the way she says things for example this week she asked about my diet, so I told her I try and eat as much fruit as I can instead of things like chocolate and cake. She pipes up with... you shouldn't be eating fruit it has to much natural sugar in it. well what the fuck am I supposed to eat then love ?? Its about this time I notice she's got a can of full fat coke sitting open at her desk (its 9am). Hypocrite much!

Don't get me started on the exercise!! I swim when I can, luckily I have a membership for my local pool so I can pretty much go whenever I like, bearing in mind I work full time 40+ hours a week and not finishing until 9-10pm sometimes. Her reaction to this was cant you swim more? when I replied saying I work full time and when I'm not working I'm doing housework or cooking etc. She pipes up with "well cant your husband do the house work?" at this point I practically have steam coming out of my ears how dare she comment on my private life. I am 5 and a half months pregnant working full time while trying to exercise and keep my house clean and tidy. By this point I was trying to hold back the tears because id had enough of being criticised for trying to do my best for me and my baby. When she suddenly started banging on about breast feeding that just tipped the scales but that's another story and another blog I shall write about.

after finishing all my blood tests almost having a nervous breakdown then enjoying a hot chocolate in costa I got picked up by my husband. Got home ran to my bedroom and cried for about 2 hours feeling like I've failed as a mum and as a human. I felt totally shit for the rest of that night trying to stay calm for the baby's sake. The following day I told myself I am doing a good job and I am going to be a good mother to my baby boy fat or not he will love me and I will love him even more. I am carrying on swimming and eating fruit and I will continue to do so until my baby Is here because I am his mum and I know what to do for the best.

if you got this far in reading my post then thank you for listening to my ramblings.

I would like to dedicate this post to chipping Norton hospital for kicking me when I'm down and making me get back up stronger!

z

xxx

  

  

Reduced movment in pregnancy, advice and what to do.

I woke up this morning after a really rubbish nights sleep suddenly thinking oh crap I didn't feel the baby move yesterday then I realised I hadn't felt him move the day before either. I didn't really know what to do at 24 weeks I'm still relatively early to be feeling a lot of movement. I got dressed and went to work but it was playing at the back of my mind all day I even tried jiggling my tummy to try and get him to move but nothing.

Not wanting to waste any doctors time i thought I would wait a bit longer. by 2pm i still couldn't feel anything after some advice from a friend who is also pregnant i called my local midwife team who really quickly got me an appointment at the local hospital. I got seen really quickly and the midwife couldn't of been any more nice and reassuring after i kept apologising for wasting her time she assured me i was wasting nobody's time. so i had the usual blood pressure and urine sample which were both normal. next was a Doppler to find baby's heartbeat, after a minuet or so we heard the heartbeat loud and clear and so strong. I've never been so relieved in my whole life, my baby boy is safe!!

The midwife said the possible cause for not feeling any kicks is the placenta could be at the front preventing the baby from kicking my stomach. The midwife couldn't have reassured me anymore and said even if in 24 hours i am still worrying to come back.

So for any pregnant women reading this and finding themselves in a similar situation please never hesitate to call you doctor midwife or even 111 because 99 times out of 100 it will be noting but its better to get it checked!

Here is some useful information about baby movements

-Most women usually begin to feel their baby move between 16-24 weeks of pregnancy

-There is no set number of normal movements your baby will have their own pattern of movements.

-Always call your doctor midwife or phone 111 for advice if you notice reduced movement.

-Do not use any hand held monitors Doppler's or phone apps to check your baby's heartbeat. Even if you detect a heartbeat this does not mean your baby is well.

for further information you can visit

www.kickscount.org.uk

or

www.nhs,uk/conditions/pregnancy-and-baby/babymovments-pregnant/

Z

xxx

 

Welcome to my blog

So for ages I've been wanting to come up with a decent blog that people will hopefully find interesting. After a few failed attempts this is my last shot so wish me lots of blogging luck! I guess now is a good time for me to start a blog as I have a lot going on in my life at the moment to write about.

firstly a bit about me...

newly turned 30 (still not used to it) and pregnant with my first child a baby boy! rewind 1 year when me and Mr M decided we wanted to try for a family. after many months of failed attempts tears and tantrums I finally got my positive pregnancy test on 12th October 2018 confirming I was 6 weeks pregnant! totally shell shocked as id recently had tests done at my GP surgery confirming I was not ovulating. (the thing us women need to do to make a baby for anyone who isn't clued up on this sort of thing.)

just one week before the exciting news that I was pregnant I had infact run oxford half marathon! totally unaware id run the 13.1 miles with a bun in the oven. I finished not in the best of times but I made it across that finish line and wore my medal with pride.

So here I am 5 and a half months later in my spare room deciding to write a blog. My life is reasonably normal I work full time as a chef in a small hotel in Oxfordshire, recently a home owner with Mr M (the husband). I love running its my dream to one day run the London marathon. I have a huge passion for mental health, one of my old school friends sadly took her own life 4 years ago this year which is what prompted me to start running to raise money. I have my own issues with mental health which I may or may not write about at some point in this blog.

I really hope you enjoy reading about my adventures into motherhood my ramblings about mental health and maybe some of my awesome baking recipies

Z

xx